monday

Apr. 21st, 2025 10:56 pm
softroe: (tmbg elements)
[personal profile] softroe
april! i meant to make a post on my birthday (04/08) but i'd been so busy that i'd forgotten. oopsie!
anyway, things have been a bit hectic over here...a big issue happened at my current job and i and some others on my team ended up laid off at the beginning of april..i start my new job tomorrow though haha!!!

my birthday went well, i mostly slept...which was a dream bday for me. i always just want to rest for my bday and do nothing else and im really glad i got the chance to just relax.

lately ive been focusing more on flans...and looking into the specifics surrounding oshikatsu and how all of that works...i want to make a flans themed uchiwa..flans themed pen light....uwaah...cute...i love him so so so much it hurts sometimes. i'm working on making a dedicated area of my room for him, and im excited to finish it up!

also today is Glean's birthday! Happy 10th Birthday Glean!

ehe...i also take the time to post and archive pictures i like of him on my photoblog: handinsidepuppethead, i really cant wait to take some of my own later this year!! i'm so super excited...hopefully he'll also get back to doing live vibe reports sometime! i really miss seeing him fumble around on tiktok, it's cute.

currently, i'm waiting on a new craft book that shows you how to make felt dolls in the style of aranzi aronzo! I'm super excited to make a flans kitty and a linnell bunny! that's all for now! /wave

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Apr. 21st, 2025 11:25 am
kradeelav: Dr. Kiriko (amused)
[personal profile] kradeelav
I AM ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg i love the world again <3

good god that head cold haunting me for the last week and a half kicked my ass. normally i can power through colds in two days but not this one! anyway WHAT I HAVE BEEN UP TO:

* had a fun out-of-state roadtrip where i got the fucker of a cold to begin with lmao. met cool oldest friends, ate cool food, didn't even bring my laptop and did a bunch of reading in the car. old friends have been popping out of the woodwork recently so i've been trying to consciously schedule in some reoccurring bits of time so i don't loose contact again.

* read a few long as hell books, one of which i'll do a review (sapiens). it feels so LOVELY to finally have my reading stamina back online after all of the eye cataracts issues of the last 3 years. these days if i catch myself visiting a social media site more than once a day i'll (try to) redirect that attention to a book. good habit!

* starting to watch gundam 0083 (stardust memories) to rest my wrist in between drawing and unexpectedly really enjoying it - great uniform porn on hot dilfs, actually funny, great animation, kickass fights, can't ask for more. kind of funny watching it after i rewatched neon genesis evangelion last week and comparing how mecha shows have evolved.

* so fucking close to finishing my gunter/corrin doujinshi!!!!! i've been powering through cleanups this past week since i couldn't think for shit but i could still hold a pen and connect lines together. on track for the june release date since there's a ton of boring book pre-prep work i have to do first that doesn't technically count as drawing. what's neat about this last comic strip is that -among other artistic technical things- it's been teaching me an incredible amount of discipline to stay drawing it and see it to the end. i honestly didn't think i'd get that back after iron crown :v so it's nice to have that back too.

right now i'm right at the tail end of a few big projects wrapping up so it's just this pervasive itchy sense of wanting to FINISH things with the satisfaction of checking them off. woooooooo

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Apr. 19th, 2025 01:10 am
kradeelav: Dr. Kiriko (amused)
[personal profile] kradeelav
me: some of these kids are either so smart or so dumb with fictional censorship and stuff. that said i have sympathy for the latter considering i too was an idiot back then. i probably said some censory shit back before i got comfortable with kinks.
me: ... though i was always some kind of dead dove edgelord
me: hmm what was i doing at age 19.... [thinks]
me: ......
me: l o l rp'ing crack hilarity as a fictional rapist (tor vizla, star wars eu)

not the most tasteful thing i ever did to be sure, but i had loads of fun with a select group. :P it was a different internet. it makes me think how i've always thought of myself with a mind of a tumblrer but the heart of a channer.

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Apr. 19th, 2025 12:31 am
kradeelav: Satou, Ajin (Satou)
[personal profile] kradeelav
 one of these days i want to write one of those annoying think pieces called "the 'it's not fuckin worth it' calculation: and why it's ruining the internet"

(something something calculation of [time it takes to make a creation] x [perceived edginess of the thing in proportion to certian circles] x [chance it has to go violently viral in a bad way] x [amount of actual care of the author has towards their audiences] = is it or is it not Fucking Worth it to make the thing)

don't get me wrong i am entirely guilty of not making a thing or two based off the calculation. it's just. annoying. how often even "I" still run through that pretty much every day after deliberately trying to shed externalities that might bite me in the butt.

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Apr. 18th, 2025 04:49 pm
kradeelav: (Masks)
[personal profile] kradeelav
"what would it take to prove you wrong" feels like a worthwhile, if emotionally difficult question to ask yourself about any topic you hold dear since it posits the mere possibility you might be wrong (gives you the grace to be wrong if that makes sense?), as well as giving you a rigorous critical thinking avenue of exploring where the common lines of argument (with evidence) are.

idk thinking about Stuff.

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Apr. 17th, 2025 05:22 pm
kradeelav: Dr. Kiriko (amused)
[personal profile] kradeelav
something kind of funny in the last few weeks is i'll be mentally talking/rubber ducking things to the Muse about something and i'll say 'i don't mind doing this, so-'

and he'll stop me. and absolutely insist on spelling out quite bluntly what precisely i meant with "i don't mind" bit, lol. (i uh. did not realize how often i mentally said "i don't mind'. it's a lot.)

it's a lot in the sense that... it's not an active resentment, but i need to parse more why i'm so willing to automatically without thinking put that voice of hesitation on mute and so willing to just steamroll over that to get the Thing out of the way.

i also did not realize how many subtle... weights that phrase can hold? not wholly in the sense of font weights as variations but unseen heavy emotional weights. while i have gotten a lot better about politely saying no to shit i don't want to do, there's a lot of mental calculations that goes into what i do in the sense of favors to others. (not artistic favors; but like... emotional compromises? sparing x time for y and z private reasons.)

articulating that recently, with the above rubber-ducking has been... healthy, i think. an un-pondered 'i don't mind' changes into 'i think it'd be good for me to spend x amount of time talking with this family member that's not exactly fun to talk to instead of doing a guilty pleasure activity because i'd regret missing the very limited time they have on this earth, but definitely make it within a limited time frame so you don't drain yourself needlessly.'

stated communication and boundaries. never enough of 'em.

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Apr. 16th, 2025 03:57 pm
kradeelav: Satou, Ajin (Satou)
[personal profile] kradeelav
just finished a truly fantastic book about academic controversies that will go unnamed and staring into the distance at how:

a) so many of these academic controversies are started over people being upset and boneheaded about What Somebody Else is doing sexually (almost always as a kink, almost always a minority).

b) so many of them are eerily textbook similar to the 50+ kink artist cancellations i've witnessed in the last ten years. similar enough i'm comparing notes to my cancelled resources page, at least.

jfc

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Apr. 16th, 2025 09:49 am
kradeelav: Dr. Kiriko (amused)
[personal profile] kradeelav
genuinely considering building my own personal web scraper to feed into my RSS feed reader because finding consistent RSS feeds for the sites i actually like (in particular the media tab for art) is becoming sharply more annoying/difficult in the last month x.x

in some ways i sympathize because i think a lot of it is that the ai scrapers use similar infrastructure that RSS feeds do, but at the same time there is absolutely *no way* i am making accounts (and giving data to) three fiddy hundred different sites. we're downsizing here baby, not up.

in terms of tech projects, i need to get my phone fixed (the back case is falling off) first and also get see if the local computer repair store is up to fixing a custom linux since there's also a few keys falling off there too lol...
meningioma: (CUTE - guineakiss)
[personal profile] meningioma
btw an update on using a full keyboard instead of shortcuts on my tablet, im getting kinda comfortable with it! Maybe one day I'll buy myself a half keyboard for being a good cookie and use that, so I can buy a cheap tablet with no buttons at all OHOHOOOOO

YET ANOTHER video link post

Apr. 15th, 2025 10:06 pm
meningioma: (CUTE - Guineacomputer)
[personal profile] meningioma
but I like this one especially this quote.

EEEEVERYONE wants us, as fandom people, to be hyperanalyzing EVERY ACTION OF OUR FAVES. and put it in context of the fucking current political climate....bro.... i dont want to do that. i want to look at pictures of anime boys kissing forever and i dont want the artists drawing it to get dogpiled off the internet for the sake of jesus christ. thank you very much.

twitter has ruined fandom completely!

anyway, watch her video, its good. go back to the beginning and get everything in context.
kitewithfish: (geralt witcher black eyes intense)
[personal profile] kitewithfish
­What I’ve Read

The Goblin Emperor by Katherine Addison – This is my fourth time thru this book, and different things stood out to me that the first time. A major turning point for Maia in the novel that I had really not remembered was him shifting from a mindset of, How can I please everyone who is making demands of me? to, Since it’s impossible to please everyone what do I think is the right thing to do?  And as a person who only recently discovered that disappointing people is not legally punishable, I felt that in my heart. This audiobook version was great - Kyle McCarley had a lot of character to each voice and it felt like it made sense for the choices he made.

I have also read a good deal of Star Wars fic by Blackkat that are all slightly too short to be counted as novels, but special attention to Cor Cordium - https://archiveofourown.org/works/52209091

What I’m Reading
His Majesty’s Dragon – Naomi Novik – I picked this up to keep my post-vacation chill mood intact, and then the library took it back. Treason! I will return to it, tho. Honestly, I feel like this one of those book series that I think I would give to any kid who lives near an ocean. 

Master and Commander – Patrick O’Brian – Since the library took Novik’s book back too early for me to finish, I figured I would go to the source material that inspired her, and start reading this! It’s about the sea and also about how being English is great because you get to fight people about stuff – wild nonsense. Jack Aubrey is a certified dummy and I think I love him – how can you not notice that the people around you are speaking Catalan and not Spanish, you hot mess of a captain.  I think audiobook is the right choice for this, as it allows the longer passages about how a sailing ship works can just glide past my ears. 

The Antarctica Conspiracy – Derin Edala made the least normal space ship in the world and the second half of the story is not any less wild. We started with a murder! 

Male Order – Unwrapping Masculinity -edited b y Rowena Chapman


What I’ll Read Next
The Memory Librarian - Janelle Monae - crossing book club 

HUGOS – This is my first year as a voting member, and I want to try and read everything (that is a single book- too many series and I will fall over). I know there is packet that goes out containing some of the books but I think it might arrive too late for me to get to all the books, so I have decided to start with what my local library can get me and work from there.




I found out about two different interesting nonfiction books recently that I want to read: 
Manhood in the Making: Cultural Concepts of Masculinity by David D Gilmore which is from 1990 and came up in a recent "If Books Could Kill" podcast episode where the host got really interested in the description of how masculine social roles construct nurturing differently than for feminine roles. It sounded interesting! 

I also found a book from 1925,  The English Language in America by GP Krapp, which came up in a Tumblr post about the way 'eye dialect', aka, phonetically writing out nonstandard spellings to portray dialects in writing, is used to portray people speaking in dialect as ridiculous and stupid (which is a dick move). I started to skim this book after finding the wikipedia article on 'eye dialect' and I found it so interesting in just the portion of the discussion where he gets into New England town hall records as a primary source for linguists to understand how colonial America was using English. I want to read it some time in more detail, or at least skim the interesting points. I realize it is literally a century out of date but I'm not a scholar, I am doing this for fun! 
vintagewitch: (Cassette)
[personal profile] vintagewitch
 I watched this video at work and it was fantastic. It's called "How to find new music in the age of algorithms" and it was put out by Notes From The Archives. Basically, he talks about how 

I wanted to make a little page of links to some of the resources he highlights. 

Music Journalism: 

Pitchfork (duh) - especially the best new music section
Hearing Things - started by ex-Pitchfork writers/staff
The Wire - Have been around a long time, cutting edge
The Quietus - Underground and experimental music. Album of the week section. 
Bandcamp Daily - highlighting obscure music through features and recommendations

Music Influencers:

Anthony Fantano of the Needle Drop
Deep Cuts - Mostly inactive, but good back catalogue

Forums and Social Media: 

This one's a bit of a minefield, but with a little digging I bet I could find some good places. 

Rate Your Music
The Ambient Forum especially was highlighted in this video

NTS Radio

This is an online radio station of curated sets by artists. Sessions?
He mentioned in the video that there's a session focusing on all the jazz music mentioned in Haruki Murakami novels and that sounds so far up my alley it's insane. I found it! It's here.
He also mentioned that Theo Parrish has ultra-long soul and funk mixes which would be perfect for cleaning. Maybe like My Analog Journal?

(And if you don't know about My Analog Journal, it's awesome. A YouTube channel that specializes in obscure records from all over the world, especially funk, soul, Latin, and jazz)

I'm excited about the NTS Radio Reimagining Country session with Jamal Khadar.

NTS also has mixes and sessions from many different musical artists. 

Cool and Niche Labels:

Factory Records for New Wave
International Anthem: focusing on jazz
Hubro: Norwegian label that puts out jazz and jazz fusion with post-rock, ambient, and more
Sacred Bones Records: Underground and experimental. It's not a genre, but a vibe.
Sublime Frequencies: Folk, field recordings, and ethnomusicology

I already found a fantastic artist that I love through this video (Moor Mother), and I'm looking forward to rabbit holing my way through some of the other recommendations. 

hmmmmmmmmm

Apr. 14th, 2025 09:51 pm
meningioma: (CUTE - piggyhi)
[personal profile] meningioma
my intuos pro M's key shortcut things are starting to go. not all of them, just the ones i use the most like ctrl Z and mirroring the canvas. do any of you guys use the full keyboard when drawing? I used to, but now the muscle memory is just not there. i have a bunch of giant fullsize keyboards that im switching between, idk, any tips? I want to start using a keyboard bc if something goes wrong i can just replace the keyboard instead of raeplacing the whole tablet.....im moving my shortcuts over to 1-2 finger operations.... and ik blender people do it all the tiem...
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