Pimp: Blocco 181 by maevedarcy
Nov. 18th, 2025 10:47 amIf you answered yes to any of the above, you might love Blocco 181.
Welcome to a fandom so tiny, there are only 4 fics of it on AO3 and 3 are mine lmao.
The series is set in Milan and follows a ménage à trois between two men, Ludo and Mahdi, and a woman, Bea, and their criminal career. Intrigued? More details below the cut. Warning: mentions of drugs.

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Did you watch it already?
Then please talk to me about it I'm starving. There's only like 20 fans of this series all over the world and we're tired of each other by now.
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Nov. 17th, 2025 11:27 ambetween twice-a-year major surgeries pretty much ever year and my skeletal system being a Fuck, in hindsight i had chronic pretty severe inflammation without realizing it. i don't blame anyone/regret anything, mind you; we were operating with the best knowledge we had back then; it's easy to forget how utterly devoid of information resources even the 90's was, you couldn't just randomly go on scihub and yoink/read an academic article on your [random medical situation] and try things out.
it's funny, i've gotten actually so good about minding which ingredients kickstarts inflammation; for some reason my usual dunkin' doughnuts bulk coffee doesn't do it, but a lot of boutique coffee brands do which is slightly awkward when people give them as gifts knowing you're the coffee fanatic. XD
it tastes great! love the variety! but maybe not so great when your baseline pain level suddenly shoots up from a 2->5/6 and you're like 'huh what changed..... oh it's the coffee again isn't it, aw damn.' lol.
anyway, mentioning it here in case if it connects any dots for anyone else.
November Link Roundup
Nov. 16th, 2025 07:17 pm... with a bonus of what i've been listening to, if you like a mix of gothy EBM and synthpop!
ladytron, I believe in you / ministry, every day is halloween / boy harsher, pain
(these three tracks were instrumental in getting me out of the months-long funk so i have a lot of fondness for 'em <3)
* OtakuArchive - lots of old 1990's-2010's anime magazines, convention pamphlets, zines, and paraphernalia hosted on archive dot org. sensory heaven for graphic designers!
* you can't unbake a cake - might be technically above some people's heads, but i liked how it explained how data (eg, artist's drawings) are actually used and funneled through AI, and how it avoided being shrill or hype-y, while still admitting it's a huge issue to deal with legally/socially/tech wise.
* I found MuckRock through that censorship webinar series; they make it easy to do file information requests from the US government. If i'm at a loss for where to donate for a month, I'll probably put them on my rotation.
* https://prison.josh.mn/site sincere reflection & thoughts from a former pirate site host. i enjoyed his reading list.
* byte archive - every cover and magazine page of the old BYTE "hacker" magazine from the 1990's. more graphic design goodness and history!
* "why movies just don't feel real anymore" - smart, nuanced video essay on why it's not just the texture / type of camera / blocking / CGI that makes live action feel differently versus pre-1990's shows. (fair warning if you watch it at x2 speed like i do it might make you feel dizzy.)
and finally, some words that gave me chills in a good way:
- (x) the Pope on cinema
Pimp: Sense8 by MerricatB
Nov. 16th, 2025 01:49 pmWould you believe a show that had enough of a fanbase to successfully bully Netflix into submission after a premature cancellation would be considered small in the year of our lord 2025? It's true!
Sense8 (2015-2018), the sci-fi (ish) masterpiece of human experience by the Wachowski sisters (The Matrix) and J. Michael Straczynski (Babylon 5) was cancelled after two seasons because Netflix hates joy and queer people. But fans rallied and got them to bend the knee, bringing us closure for our beloved cluster. And still the fandom is sooo small y'all.So what's in it for you?
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Just Create - Path edition
Nov. 15th, 2025 10:37 pmwhat I need is Accounting For Anticapitalists
Nov. 14th, 2025 06:44 pmOne thing I have learned about myself doing this Accounting for Managers course is that I absolutely hate having to write from a pure "upper management" point of view to the point where my options are just "procrastinate indefinitely" or "write it as if I run some kind of employee-owned co-op" and so I'm opting for the latter most of the time.
The rest of this is just a thought dump, feel free to ignore.
Somewhere yesterday I realized that I've been tearing down all of my systems and guardrails instead of what I usually try to do, which is changing them one at a time or, ideally, not changing them at all.
My household routines are off and honestly have been since before my nibling got here. Laundry's just. Not moving. I can't seem to make any progress on packing. Nothing's getting out of the house. I've complained about this before, it's boring.
I got a new pair of jeans with a slightly smaller pocket so I decided to try a slightly smaller notebook and all hell has broken loose since then on the notebook front. I've tried and bounced hard off of two, I'm still sort of using a third but not very well, I've got a journal that's too large to be an EDC living next to my bed except when it isn't, and I bought the absolutely gorgeous PaperblanksxFourth Wing notebook and it's in this size they call "midi" which is like... 5x7? It's bigger than my jeans pockets but it's fall now and I'm wearing my jacket a lot and it has no problem fitting in my jacket pocket and I'm trying SO FUCKING HARD not to move into it just because it's SHINY NEW but at the same time it's like... distracting thinking about it so maybe I should just fucking do it, you know? If I like it, then I can try a paperblanks planner for next year in the Midi size too. And if I don't I'll just go back to the one that works.
Please somebody tell me this isn't worth the amount of overthinking I'm doing.
I had somebody suggest making a list of values in a way that hit me like a ton of bricks, where normally that would sound twee as hell. Because it occurred to me that I'm actually always looking for a single word or phrase that unites everything I care about and that's just... pretty much impossible. But if I make a list then I don't have to just pick one. (lolsob why does "you can be more than one thing" feel like a big deal)
Other things I've torn apart and now cannot commit to: - backups (I don't want to depend on google drive. Currently waffling between a nextcloud instance and protondrive.) - email providers (Currently waffling between fastmail and protondrive.) - digital notes/references/bookmarks (kind of half moved into Obsidian, tried xtiles but never settled into it, playing with moving back into Notion, there are some things Notion just makes really easy.) - website (one of the things Notion could make really easy is some variants on website maintenance. not all of them but... definitely some. currently have some sites on a regular ftp host, some still on nearlyfreespeech, and some still running on fastmail's web server option. not keeping up with anything. augh etc.)
Also other stuff I'm forgetting, I'm sure.
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Nov. 14th, 2025 08:54 pmsee i love dissecting zihark for very similar reasons to gunter:
because both of them have their surface level "cute/sweet" ~perfect~ ~palatable~ story - 'oh he's just the northern fortress dad' or 'oh he fights for equality because of his dead laguz lover so tragically romantic ;a;'
and gunter, i've talked about here at length, lol - there is a technical piece of truth to that (he does care for corrin and the northern fortress kids but it is. a teeny part of the actual truth. and man is he deliciously rancid.)
but zihark -
first thing is, there's grieving for That One (and people always will for their whole lives especially if there's a death involved, some folks are just special) - but there's also.... like we have all heard about a Guy Who Is A Little Weird about his ex in a big-ass-red-flag sense, right.
and even if he's not That Kind of Weird about his lover/romantically in general - you start to notice, where's friends for him, where's a home, the plague hit when he was four, did his family die in the plague? how did he survive financially before being a mercenary?
beyond 'where is a single support person/authority figure for you, man' - he's introduced in a constant mindset of being a mole/traitor for vigilantes who would viscerally - hate his guts if they knew the truth about him. (in darker corners of the world, violent thug types who would hunt other living beings for sport get.... really fucking violent about perceived sexual deviance and that is exactly how they'd view it, without mincing words. bleakly, that's assuming if he wasn't found out at least once.)
it takes a not-all-there personality to actually be able to integrate oneself with those thuggish types, survive without being revealed, and hold one's own mindset separate, for what, months? years? he's not mature or particularly well trained before being thrown to the wolves, either.
so you've got that jagged edge, and then curiously, you've got the other extreme where when he is in a position to defect to the laguz army, he .... doesn't.
emotionally paralyzed. he's manipulative and charming enough to survive but there's a curious core of apathy, disassociation, distance, adrift-ness at the smallest sense of conflict. he's not going to lead the charge, but rather weaves in and out of the corners of your eye and wait.
(and between those two extremes i distinctly get the sense he's subconsciously a martyr - do right, yes - but distinctly not giving a real hard damn about whether he's staying on this world or not if things went the wrong way and he fucked up in combat.)
that
that, man - is a hell a lot more interesting to me than that sheen we're given.
I'm alive!!!
Nov. 13th, 2025 08:05 amWell, that and I've been working on art and things. Let's break it down:
Art:
After e-begging for comms through my unemployment, I've mostly closed my commissions and I'm working on developing my skills and making merchandise. I've broken out my watercolor supplies and have been trying to work on that, though it's hard to get everything set up to do it. If I had more space at home and a bed that didn't need to be folded up to do work at my art desk it would help, but alas.
I also have stickers in planning on putting up on my kofi shop this weekend! I'm excited to try selling this kind of stuff again. It didn't go well the first time I tried but the cost to profit ratio for stickers is so low stakes that if it doesn't go well I genuinely won't be upset.
Writing:
I don't wanna talk about it
Nails...?
One of my hobbies is nail polish and although I'm done shopping for new shades this year, there are several exciting new additions to my collection. My nails are also longer than they've been in a long time, which is thanks to Anchor and Heart's mermaid tears base coat, the only base coat that's lasted longer than 4 days on me with no peeling. It's my holy Grail and I'm gonna be real upset if I can't get my hands on it once I run out.
Anyway, check out my kofi on my pinned post if you want to see some new art! I'll try to do round ups again at the end of the month. Maybe it'll motivate me to do some stuff creatively.
Wednesday Reading Meme for Nov 12 2025
Nov. 12th, 2025 08:00 pmLiterally nothing!
Which was kind of an interesting experience. I did this as sort of a “see what bubbles up when you’re not filling your head with words” and some stuff did! Can’t call it unmixed, but not without merit.
I found the experience a bit like going to the abstract wing of an art museum. At first it's all, Why are there no landscapes? Where are the people? Who is an allegory in these blobs of color? What does the vague square here Mean? But you go and you gaze slowly into the washes of color and the suggestions of a shape and it seeps into your brain that that’s sufficient to be Art. You float on a formless tide, dreaming without concrete shapes, synthesizing the Art inside of you. It stabilizes and you stop wanting someone else's allegory. You know what that blob means, what that vague square is saying to you and you alone.
Then you step out and go out into the portraits gallery. You are assaulted by the grounded, constructed, firm, Realness of all the other Art. It overwhelms you. Why can I see this man's actual nose. Whose horse is that.
In the space I was not filling with words by other people, I did a lot of Feeling My Feelings (exhausting but do recommend) and writing (exhausting but exhilarating) and also puttered very productively around the house, accomplishing many a small and valuable task (comforting and rather nice).
What I’m Reading
The Artists Way – Week 5 – Sense of Possibility
Alien Clay – very early on – We are getting into the big scifi questions.
What I’ll Read Next
Witness for the Dead Katherine Addison
The Fortunate Fall by Cameron Reed
Next Earthsea book?
Establishing a Writing Routine
Nov. 12th, 2025 07:50 pmEstablishing a Writing Routine
The idealized writing routine looks something like this:
- make a cup of tea or coffee while getting in a creative mindset
- sit down to free write with a fountain pen as a warmup
- light a candle or incense to draw the muse and other creative spirits
- put on the perfect music or silence, as needed
- get comfortable and write 1,000 or 2,000 words in an hour or so
Mmm, sounds nice, doesn't it? That aesthetic set up is absolutely the ideal. It feels more writerly and like it’s what’s missing from our writing lives. If only we could free write with a fountain pen, light a candle, and be blessed by the muse with inspiration to write for an hour. If that, then we could be successful and productive writers.
But writing routines are not that idealized or consistent. Writing routines have to fit around real lives and incorporate personal quirks. Writing routines are not one-size-fits-all and they must be flexible so you can write on days when you’re busy, tired, or just not feeling it.
Writing routines won’t make you write, but they can help you find your way to words.
What Does a Real Writing Routine Look Like?
Probably the best way to figure out what writing routines look like is by examining an actual routine that works for someone. So, mine, heh. Let's talk about my writing routine on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, the days when I write with a fairly steady schedule.
Three days a week, I meet with 2–3 members of my in-person writing group on Discord for a mid-day write-in.
Prep Time: My writing prep starts about an hour before when I eat lunch, take a break, and let my mind rest and switch tasks. I usually watch a TV show and play a phone game. I make sure to choose a show that won’t adversely affect my writing, specifically by making me want to watch the next episode, flail about it with a friend, or otherwise pull my thoughts away from writing.
I then check-in with the other writers who join me. This is when we confirm attendance or delays to our normal start time. Then I clean up from lunch, make tea, and open my files.
Hopefully I also have time to clean up my file from the previous writing session and get a grip on what I need to work on today, which usually includes rereading the last couple paragraphs in a scene or notes I made about what comes next. If I run out of time, I finish my prep in the first 5–10 minutes of our first sprint.
Writing: I have a desk in my home office where I write. Aside from my laptop and/or iPad (and various desk fidgets), I try to clear my desk except for my tea, phone, project notebook, and a set of colored pens. (Sometimes I clear my desk by setting things out of sight on the floor.)
I set the timer for our first sprint and get to work.
We usually write for three 20-minute sprints, giving about an hour of writing time over an hour-and-a-half period. We report what we worked on, complain about various things (including how mushy our brains are), and share pictures of our cats.
Wrap Up: By the end of the third sprint, I’m usually done writing for the day. If I’m really on a roll, I might continue long enough to finish a conversation, but if it feels like it will take longer than about 10 minutes, I jot some notes about what comes next and trust I’ll be able to pick up where I left off the next day.
At that point, writing time is done and I move on to other things I need to do with my day.
How Do You Make A Routine Happen?
The writing routine I described above happens in a group. Meeting with a group is a great way to establish a writing routine. When you make a plan to meet with others, you are more likely to show up than if you just tell yourself that you’re supposed to write at noon.
You know how I know that? Because the days of the week when I don’t write with other people, I don’t write on a schedule. I do write, but I fit it in wherever makes sense in my day, which means on a very busy day, I’m squeezing in words at the last possible second. (Not my best choice.)
Routines also happen when you take similar steps to get there. The whole “routine” part is that you have a consistent set of actions that lead you to writing. You may not need lunch + break + tea before writing, but a series of steps before writing that can become your pre-writing routine can help you get there.
You know how I know that? Most days if I follow lunch with tea, I sit down to write. My brain has associated mid-day tea with writing, so it’s become an easy way to get my brain to shift into the writing gear. (It’s also a way for me to tell my brain to shift into writing. If I want to write and have been dancing around it, if I make a cup of tea, it’s a short-cut to my brain being able to settle.)
The other Big Secret to a writing routine is figuring out what works for you. While tea and a writing group work best for me, maybe you need something different. Maybe your routine is:
- Make Breakfast + Notebook to Freewrite
- Take Shower + Let Hair Dry + Write 20 Minutes
- Walk to Park + Eat Lunch + Write 15 Minutes
- Pick Up Kids + Fix Snacks + Write While Helping with Homework
- Everyone Else In Bed + Write Until Sleepy
Your routine can be whatever helps you get to writing, so figure out what works for you and is something you can achieve—whether that’s daily or a handful of times a week. Remember, routines can be adjusted for specific days (my MWF routine is different from other days) or you might have a routine for Busy Days that’s different from your routine for Extremely Busy Days. As long as you have your own secret to get you writing, you have a routine.
Think about what you did the last time you sat down to write, is that your writing routine? Do you think something might work better for you?
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Nov. 11th, 2025 10:38 pmi've been able to draw quite well for all of these months don't get me wrong, but inking is a more intuitive deal for me that i had not been able to do for a while; was quietly afraid there for a bit i lost my touch since august (given, well. all of that going down). but it's coming back. ah finally, it's coming back.
anyway speaking of august, i belatedly think i've been in a mild brain recession since then.
i like to call these brain recessions rather than a depression (too serious/heavy; this round is not that because i've had those), or a funk (too vague); it's not linked to seasons, imbalanced bloodwork, or other more obvious IRL issues like work. the start of it was definitely due to the August issues though, with something similar that popped up in early September that I don't want to get into. usually the tell-tale sign is me throwing myself in a video game for suspiciously long stints of time. this time around i noticed i was drawing a weirdly high amount of soft/romantic/fluffy shipping artwork, so maybe that's a pattern that i need to look out for in the future... nothing wrong with it in principle, given it's what got me to start drawing a very long time ago - but doing it out of a self-soothing reflex in response to a mildly unhappy brain is different than relaxed enjoyment. (funnily enough when i draw dead dove/"hard" kink work, it's when i'm happier on average.)
that said things have felt different the last two weeks, in a good way!
more clear-headed. actively antsy in a way to shake off this malaise, versus just. rotting. tbh it's one of the easiest brain recessions i've had in a while lol thank god, probably another reason i'm only belatedly seeing it now. been taking the time to sleep, do games after work, pacing myself. i'm at 90% on at least 6-7 different hobby projects and crunching on them in the background. some other things i've been up to:
* videogames: on act 3 of final fantasy tactics; though took a pause on that to pick up a new elden ring playthrough since i was itching for something action oriented for some reason. i was not impressed with elden ring's story (and especially its DLC) my last-go-around earlier this year, but my god its early gameplay is a delight, and i'm playing this run "as" zihark (FE, katana build) compared to my old gunter (FE, whip/armored knight build). :P medieval blorbo torture simulator 3000 is uhhh fun. more fun than it should be ~
speaking of those two builds, have an fire-emblem-meta-disguised-as-elden ring gameplay meta poast from tumblr:
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* other media: I marathoned 'a stepmother's marchen' which is a webtoon. holy fuck that was a good story. like crorrin's hentai manga short stories, ASM is the story that convinced me that webtoons as a genre can be legitimately art, versus shovelware. put simply it's about a stepmother who somehow time travels back to the time right after her husband (head of the house in a vaguely medieval-vatican world) died, and she's able to fix her mistakes in slowly endearing his family to her. the way the story handled issues like grooming, domestic abuse of spouses, incest, flawed people trying to genuinely do better for each other, women being schemers and loving people at the same time.... i have not been that impressed in a very long time. lots of it reminded me of the highs of Utena and of Kuroshitsuji; that kind of old gritty manga while being absurdly gorgeous. some of ASM's panels look like it could be animated by the same studio that did violet evergarden. anyway, highly highly reccomended, i brought all of the volumes if that says anything.
* work: dayjob has been ... weird, also since august lol. there was a brief bit of rest there; usually there's very clear ebbs and flows of busy-ness but it's been at an uncomfortably high tempo since then for a long while. i'm still 'not unhappy' (it has been sooooooo much fucking worse in the past), but it's something i'm keeping an eye on. still extremely amused that i'm being the project manager for my old art director-turned-my-minion though; i was fielding questions for him from my current art director today. XD
* msc: been in a delete spree with bsky posts / old tumblr posts, changing up avatars a bit ... brought christmas presents yesterday... going (digital) furniture shopping for the new home... (meaning: finding things and saving the links so i can wait until they're on sale :p), catching up on replies....
Fairy Tale BINGO Card 2025
Nov. 11th, 2025 02:18 pm| Sleeping Beauty | Heart of Ice | The Three Brothers | Dragon | Faith |
| The Red Shoes | Basilisk | Banshee | Trickster God | Golden Hair |
| Vampire | Djinn | Poison | The Sweet Porridge | Candle |
| Witch | Glory | Shadow | Solitude | Golem |
| Little Golden Star | Bigfoot | Wizard | Talisman | Troll |