riding the echo down

I AM ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg i love the world again <3

good god that head cold haunting me for the last week and a half kicked my ass. normally i can power through colds in two days but not this one! anyway WHAT I HAVE BEEN UP TO:

* had a fun out-of-state roadtrip where i got the fucker of a cold to begin with lmao. met cool oldest friends, ate cool food, didn't even bring my laptop and did a bunch of reading in the car. old friends have been popping out of the woodwork recently so i've been trying to consciously schedule in some reoccurring bits of time so i don't loose contact again.

* read a few long as hell books, one of which i'll do a review (sapiens). it feels so LOVELY to finally have my reading stamina back online after all of the eye cataracts issues of the last 3 years. these days if i catch myself visiting a social media site more than once a day i'll (try to) redirect that attention to a book. good habit!

* starting to watch gundam 0083 (stardust memories) to rest my wrist in between drawing and unexpectedly really enjoying it - great uniform porn on hot dilfs, actually funny, great animation, kickass fights, can't ask for more. kind of funny watching it after i rewatched neon genesis evangelion last week and comparing how mecha shows have evolved.

* so fucking close to finishing my gunter/corrin doujinshi!!!!! i've been powering through cleanups this past week since i couldn't think for shit but i could still hold a pen and connect lines together. on track for the june release date since there's a ton of boring book pre-prep work i have to do first that doesn't technically count as drawing. what's neat about this last comic strip is that -among other artistic technical things- it's been teaching me an incredible amount of discipline to stay drawing it and see it to the end. i honestly didn't think i'd get that back after iron crown :v so it's nice to have that back too.

right now i'm right at the tail end of a few big projects wrapping up so it's just this pervasive itchy sense of wanting to FINISH things with the satisfaction of checking them off. woooooooo

 one of these days i want to write one of those annoying think pieces called "the 'it's not fuckin worth it' calculation: and why it's ruining the internet"

(something something calculation of [time it takes to make a creation] x [perceived edginess of the thing in proportion to certian circles] x [chance it has to go violently viral in a bad way] x [amount of actual care of the author has towards their audiences] = is it or is it not Fucking Worth it to make the thing)

don't get me wrong i am entirely guilty of not making a thing or two based off the calculation. it's just. annoying. how often even "I" still run through that pretty much every day after deliberately trying to shed externalities that might bite me in the butt.

"what would it take to prove you wrong" feels like a worthwhile, if emotionally difficult question to ask yourself about any topic you hold dear since it posits the mere possibility you might be wrong (gives you the grace to be wrong if that makes sense?), as well as giving you a rigorous critical thinking avenue of exploring where the common lines of argument (with evidence) are.

idk thinking about Stuff.