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miscellanium) wrote2026-08-04 03:11 pm
summer update
long time no post, whoops. my partner recently got a gender-affirming surgery and i've been off work caring for them. we've gotten back into re-watching yugioh arc-v; a hellsing buddy also likes yugioh dm and idr how we talked them into watching arc-v for the first time but they've been getting a huge kick out of it. their favorite character is gongenzaka (good choice) and we're in the middle of the synchro arc now. they keep commenting on how uncomfortable that dimension is in both social and architectural design, but it's a good thing because that means the designs are effective lol. the designs in this show really are so good!
the re-watch has been inspiring me to write about shingo again. i never really thought of myself as having a muse but i think he might be mine. after all these years he still speaks to me as intensely as ever. the show ended in 2017!! i'm not the type to just move on from fandoms (if i really like a piece of media i will keep returning to it off and on over the years) but i had an unpleasant experience with a badly-run fan event in 2018 that pretty much killed my enjoyment in writing. took me a while to find that joy again by re-reading hellsing in 2020, and people who know me for that fandom probably also know about the problems i ended up facing there as well lol. i still like hellsing and have several fics on the back burner, but shingo just makes me so happy. even when i'm writing things where he's being treated horribly. it's nice to give myself a creative break from working on depressing literary hellsing fic by working on depressing literary yugioh fic.
more seriously, i still think that for all its flaws arc-v is possibly the best spinoff to show a dm-only fan. that's how it worked for me! i hadn't seen any of the spinoffs but i saw the teasers with yuuya's design and read about the action duels and was intrigued. that's how it's been working for my hellsing buddy too. it doesn't lean on the "hey remember this thing from dm" gimmick that some of the earlier spinoffs suffered from but it's clearly inspired by many plot elements. more of a homage than a nostalgia grab. the action duels are a great idea: they give so much life to previously static duels. it's not just people standing and yelling at each other for several episodes, and the pacing is generally snappy enough that the longer duels only take two episodes. there's a couple exceptions to that rule but they're meant to be climactic outliers.
one problem (not really a problem but y'know) is that i like to write weird and uncomfortable shit. there's plenty of cute/funny stuff under my handle on ao3 but returning to hellsing helped me realize that my real bread and vegan butter these days is interiority, repression, and psychological pain. my current wip has the working title of "shungo suffering" (it's sawatari shingo/kurosaki shun, the show's designated whumping bag) and i've been looking for a beta but for some reason it's tough to find someone who wants to read a fic with a warning for "two under-18 people pressured into having sex with each other for an audience". i can't possibly imagine why! might end up posting it without a beta, we'll see. i'm just having fun writing a whole thing based on a single throwaway line in the show that made me go wait a minute, why did he say it like that?
yano shougo does such a great job as shingo (those voice cracks..... the screaming............ gives me cute aggression out the wazoo) so i decided to look up what he's worked on since then and apparently he's the main character in a 2019 BL called given? i feel like i've heard of it but i worry that my allergy to main characters will kick in lol. he's also in some one-off called pretty boy detective club and it seems like his character in that might be kind of similar to shingo. i might check out one or both.
i've been trying to read more books though, since my job now has a lot of screen time, and i've been really enjoying both moby dick and the kindly ones (english translation). i'm maybe 3/4 done with the kindly ones and that's due back to the library soonish, so i should log off and go keep reading it!
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Damn! Yu-Gi-Oh has been on my mind. I finally completed the manga set now I need to start reading them. Still haven't gotten the DVD set yet.
If you start writing Yu-Gi-Oh fanfics please share them! I'd love to read them. speaking of fanfics a few other people I know have been taking about them and how they wrote them back in the day. It's making a come back....like Myspace lol
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def start reading the manga!! if you're talking about yugioh dm, takahashi's art is so pleasing to the eye.
i have a handful of old yugioh dm fics out there, but they're mostly on ao3 (pretending ff.net doesn't exist). all of my other yugioh fics are for arcv. i hope the other people you know write more too!
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I love his series, the characters and story are amazing and difference. I can look at Atem all day hahah
I use to use ff.net but I find ao3 is more pleasant to look at lol. haven't posted since high school though. I feel so old when I hear anyone talk about fanfiction. Oh the good old days LOL.
I will def check out your yugioh fanfics. ♥